PAST... What is it for all? A mental sandwich? With each passing moment I'm becoming part of the past. There is no future for me, just the past steadily accumulating. There is someone who told me that my past is always my past. However, even if I tried so hard to forget it, it still remembers me FOREVER! Past leaves nothing but scars. Scars have the strange power to remind us that our past is real. The events that cause them can never be forgotten. NOW... I can't see a future or present for myself. Instead, only the past influences and dictates my EVERYTHING!!!
How to destroy my past? There is NO WAY I can say. Impossible for me to leave my past instead I only can see it coming towards me like the thunderstorm which will never ending drenching on me...
Its not right to HATE. But the more I know myself, the more hatred I have towards myself.
I have wanted to quit so much. I wish I never exist. The future that I drew before is just a true illusion in my life. An egg has a the outer shell to protect it. So do I... What everyone see is just my shell. I wish I could tell you how much I care but all I can do is just sit and stare emptily at the wall. I don't know how to explain this pain its driving me crazy not being able to let it out I think I'll go insane. It hurts because your point of view is so IMPORTANT to me.
